the worst month in my life..............

i can't stand this it will be my last
log in this month...
i's so sad cuz my grandmother that used to
live with us dyied...
i cried so much my eyes hurted me..
everytime i think about her death my heart beats really fast
even now...
at school i cried again and when the teacher
sent me out to see what happend i told her eveything
and i shiverd like hell

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i feel sad even though at school i still laugh i still feel sad and i can't get this sadness away..
that's way i'm triying to laugh alot...